Life goes on.

For the last 5 months, I feel like I've been recovering from a tail spin, and I've finally reached a point of feeling like I'm flying straight again.

There were some major life-changing events in August, 2011 that caused the spin. While I don't look at what happened very often, I'm doing so in this moment, and trying to focus on the brighter side of it.

Through these experiences, I've gained a lot of perspective. I've learned that death doesn't really need to be so hard. That it's like "taking off a tight shoe" as I've heard Ram Dass put it.

I've been listening to Abraham Hicks a LOT lately, and it's really helping me to understand what I can control, and what to do about the things I cannot control.

• What I CAN control is how I respond to my emotions. My emotions are a guidance system that tell me how aligned I am with my higher good—source energy—God… whatever you want to call it. When aligned, I feel joy, peace, elation, pure bliss, etc… When I'm out of alignment, well… things just don't feel that great. What I can do about it is change my focus away from what I don't want. Well, that's not exactly right. We can't choose NOT to look at something because by not looking at the thing I don't want, I am in fact looking at it. So, instead I'll look at something else—something that DOES feel better. "Find a better feeling thought" as Abraham likes to say.

• When something comes up that I cannot control, I can shift my focus to where I can control, to my responses, and finding that better feeling thought.

So, as far as my mother's death is concerned, there are aspects of it that I choose not to focus on, and there are aspects of it that make me feel better about it. Though, there is still the formerly practiced habit of thinking "death is bad", which still creeps in.

• I focus on the amazement she expressed in her last moments on this plane of reality. The blissful "oh my God" she uttered hours before she left. What was she experiencing?

• I focus on her being free from the pain she experienced while still in her body.

• My mother didn't die. Death doesn't really exist. It's part of this illusion that we all identify with. This universe is an inclusion-based universe, and therefore nothing can ever go out of existence. But it can change form, which is what my mother's energy has done. Who she really is—source energy—has just left the physical realm. Yet, she still fully exists in the non-physical. She is with me more now than she ever was while she was physical, and that feels so beautiful.

• I remind myself that any feeling of loss that I experience isn't because of my mother's transition. No, that's just an excuse I'm using to keep myself separate from who I really am—source energy. And when I'm separated from source, I feel bad.

And… even though I try to focus on these better-feeling thoughts, sometimes I still just cry about it. At which point, it's time to stop thinking about it all-together and go do something completely different.

This process has been going on since August 18, 2011, and every day is a new learning experience. At first I tried to take it all in and deal with it, but quickly learned that was impossible for me. That the resistance to it was too strong, and I made myself sick. So now, as my tail straightens out and I'm flying straight again, I can see that I just need to continue living my life and allow goodness to flow into my life in all ways possible.

Thank you mom for continuing to teach me.

4 comments:

Ayisha said...

I am so touched by your healing thougts and words. Thank you for sharing your journey. I hope you continue to be blessed with strength and courage, wisdom and fortitude with each day that passes.

Anonymous said...

Condolences on the loss of your Mother's physical presence in your life. It is so difficult to learn to communicate using tools other than the five senses. I heard once that death is the process by which the soul separates from the body; it helps me to think of this when I am faced with a dying loved one. A friend who died this summer told me that the take-home message she learned in this life is that the only true and real things are the love you give and the love you receive; everything else is a mistake.

TLK

Congratulations on the book! I look forward to seeing it at my local bookstore!

buttsms said...

Thanks For Sharing this nice Topic

"The law of attraction is the name given to the belief that "like attracts like" and that by focusing on positive or negative thoughts, one can bring about positive or negative results.[1][2][3][4] This belief is based upon the idea that people and their thoughts are both made from pure energy, and the belief that like energy attracts like energy.[citation needed] One example used by a proponent of the law of attraction is that if a person opened an envelope expecting to see a bill, then the law of attraction would "confirm" those thoughts and contain a bill when opened. A person who decided to instead expect a check might, under the same law, find a check instead of a bill.[5]

Although there are some cases where positive or negative attitudes can produce corresponding results (principally the placebo and nocebo effects), there is no scientific basis to the law of attraction.[6]"

Kristen said...

Thanks for commenting buttsms. However, I disagree that there is no scientific proof for the law of attraction. If you look further into quantum physics, specifically the work done by Gregg Braden, there is a lot of logical reasoning behind why the law of attraction is scientifically sound.

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